Sunday, October 12, 2008
great. i think i can see myself in the future.. loner. 10 oct and 11 oct made me know that i'm so lonely after all.
i'm going to be alone in time to come. i do envy those who make friends so easily.. as i look at my pathetic phone contact, and my pathetic msn contacts, i feel dejected. in fact, there's only 3 people whom i talk to. 1 would be zhe an. 1 would be cheng chuan. 1 would be another person whom i will not say.
both have grown, a lot. but i, chose to face this wall until something bad really happens.
there's one thing i feel dejected about. my arcade life. if i don't remember wrongly, i talked about a girl in my previous post. yes. its only then, i found out, its not about how naturally talented you are, its how rich you are. of course, it links to reality. like initial d episode 5, quoted: it made me realize that racing is all about funding.
indeed. that is a fact. as a schooling boy, i have no complaints. i just have to work everything out myself as fast as possible before i waste too much money.
i won't really say what's going to happen. but i'm going to be all alone.. just like the old days..
now, i only want to learn to drive asap. then i'll get my own car, cheap, easy and practical to drive.
maybe i should sneak out during the holidays to drive around springleaf..
once upon a time... i dreamed.
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