stars from the promised land

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Wednesday, December 19, 2007

back from japan. i'm supposed to be happy. cause i'm back to my loved ones, loved place, but. apparently, i don't. my mind tells me otherwise.. like.. i left something important behind.. very important..

current mood: snowy white

i'm feeling kinda depressed. thats not the problem. the problem is that, i don't know why i'm depressed. i just feel sad. hmm. okay, lets see. i got bullied by my family almost everywhere. you know.. 被当成笑柄..

i took a number of pictures.. not with people. just sceneries with snow. taking pictures of people are like pasting people into a beautiful background, dirtying the picture. not that i'm saying the background will be totally thrashed or anything, but.. okay, i'll just say. its not what i do.

current mood: grey

as for the photos.. if you're lucky, see my msn pictures. i'll be randomly showing them.

current mood: pure white

hmm.. don't you think this winter season suits me? lone, quiet. well, i guess those who only see me playing won't notice this. i'd love to stay there, but i want to come back too. whats this, multiple desires.. always have it.

current mood: red.

oh yeah. speaking of which. my bloody audition isn't working. anymore. forever. . . why? its because God has given up on me. i'm probably playing too much, so he decided to take 1 game away from me. or maybe i've been too mischevious a boy, vulgar? yeah, too much.

current mood: winter white

my voice.. isn't very good too.. i don't believe it if its the weather. a sudden drop in voice during April didn't seem enough for God to see, so he decided to continue the punishment. my previously highest note since September, was a middle F. now? hmmph. i'm struggling on a middle C. no, don't say its water. i've drank loads. even ate snow in japan. oh. and, it doesn't make me go lower. it's just reducing my range of notes. i might only have 7? 8 notes range in time to come.

current mood: sky blue

yeah thats.. all? no, i'm not going to post about my japan trip. scold me if you must, insult me if you will. i will not post.

Oceans apart day after day

And I slowly go insane

I hear your voice on the line

But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never

How can we say forever

Wherever you go

Whatever you do

I will be right here waiting for you

Whatever it takes

Or how my heart breaks

I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times

That I thought would last somehow

I hear the laughter, I taste the tears

But I can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it baby

You've got me goin' crazy

Wherever you go

Whatever you do

I will be right here waiting for you

Whatever it takes

Or how my heart breaks

I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive

this romance

But in the end if I'm with you

I'll take the chance...

this poem means nothing. and will never mean anything.

thou shalt let there be snow

and let the wind blow.

These art all for thy my dear

They are harmless please do not fear.

Holidays passed within a blink of an eye,

all we could do was nothing but sigh

Thinking of the upcoming year,

There aren't really much to fear

Just stick to the status quo

Be friendly and caring, don't be cold

poems might be a few, but they all suck. mind not working well.

once upon a time... i dreamed.
|6:57 PM|

Welcome C=

to a land of hopes and dreams, promises and heartbreaks

People should be doubted.
Many people misunderstand this concept.
Doubting people is simply a part of trying to get to know them.
"Trust". The act is without a doubt a very noble one.
but you know, what many people do, that they call "trust"...
Is actually giving up on trying to understand others.
And that has nothing to do with "trust", but is rather apathy.
There are countless people out there who fail to realize that
Apathy is a far more devastating act than doubting others.
The true evil is becoming apathetic about other people.