Thursday, April 20, 2006
Sunday
this post is wholly dedicated to sunday's activities.
why am i posting it so late? dun ask me. i dont know. oh wait. i remember now. its coz i had no net access at any time prior to this..
anyways.
started the day with church. had easter service, i think. yea. after church, went to grandma's house. waited for my other relatives from my mother's side of the family to come before we went to cemetry for qing ming.
well, it was interesting. went to the cemetry first. for the first time, we had to burn the hell money in bins, instead of the drain which we used to do before. interesting. all in all, was rather plain.. nothing else rather interesting. i almost tripped twice though.. dunno if its called an omen..
went to the crematorium after tat.
since it was about to rain, we went through the process rather quickly. we burnt the hell notes and were about to start back for the car. when the wind suddenly came. in fact, i would be inclined to call it a gale. it wasnt something i have ever felt in sg before. ever.
for 1 thing, the leaves were flying. and seriously flying.. a whole lot of leaves. i could even see the birds struggling to keep themselves in flight. some were even forced to change directions to go with the wind.
it was as if a hurricane was about to come sia.. totally lor.. the trees were like almost bending liao la.. i saw my brother throw out some phlegm. it flew back for like a metre. scary wind sia..no joke lor. and wats even freakier? when we got into the car, the wind suddenly calmed a lot. i mean, how freaky can anything get? omen? haha..
then went back to grandma's house. for dinner. played a game of dota before dinner though. dinner was steamboat. i ate a lot. especially meat. pork and beef. sukiyaki.
not that i expect many people to understand what i'm writing. so this is my sunday entry.
but since its so short, im gonna write something else. no, not sunday stuff. writing about fear.
fear. is bad. it causes people do all kinds of stupid things.
fear of the unknown, resulted in people trying to understand everything. whats the point of doing so?
fear in the mind, results in people becoming oversensitive to all kind of things, like thinking there are monsters under the beds when people were young.
fear of me, of not being able to understand me, resulted in many not daring to befriend me.
fear is essentially, the reason why people are afraid to make mistakes, even when they know that we have to make mistakes before we can learn from the mistakes.
and schools, to put it nicely, provide a place for us to make mistakes without feeling the effects of failure too hard to cope. at least this was what i think schools were built for in the first place...
fear for something only makes the fear grow more. overcome it, and it will serve to aid you.
once upon a time... i dreamed.
|7:34 AM|
